We're LEAVING!!

Got the call this morning that Miss A is in labor & in the hospital as we speak! Pray for safe travels & that everything goes smoothly! We will update when we can!!

Weary

I think that best describes how we feel right now. Today is the due date & no word of the baby making an appearance anymore. It's exhausting to have everyday for the last 2+ weeks to be ready to leave at a moments notice. Constantly keeping everything in order & doing laundry at the late hours of the night just to make sure everything is clean "just in case". I know Miss A is also sick of this. 10 days ago she had thought she was in labor so we surely thought by now that the baby would be here.  I know this is repeating every post I've had lately but this is one of the 1st days that I've felt completely drained from trying to keep it all together & be positive. I'm sick of being such an outsider, not knowing how things are going or when the doctors will step in & get things started. I'm worried about how what we will do if we aren't back for the date of Wyatt's surgery & if we will need to reschedule it & when we would possibly do it. I know, it's worry & we are told not to do that but it's human nature. Yeah, the whole God's timing is perfect thing is too hard to grasp when we are on this side of things. I'll jump on that band wagon after the fact, okay?? But for right now, it bites! Yes, this is a pity party for now.

I also have to add a little disclaimer that I know so many of you in the adoption world have waited much, much longer and having this feeling & this intense wait makes me more & more convinced of God's grace on those families. I will not only be praying that our wait is done soon but I will also be on my knees to be praying for those who have been enduring this wait much longer than us. My heart aches for you! It really does & it makes me feel guilty for having these feelings when we've only been at this for as long as we have.

So, I ask you for continued prayers. Prayers for strength to keep going & prayers for peace. I have a very restless feeling & I hate that when I know that God is with me always & He is working all things for good.

Just Rolling With It

Yep, nothing. We know we can't do anything but wait. We are just rolling with each day & we know that 1 of these days we will get that call that the baby is on the way. We will have lots of family gatherings in the next 2 days to keep us occupied. The lesson on patience isn't always an easy one!

If you think....

we are about ready to go insane, you'd be correct! Miss A has now been pregnant longer than she ever has in the past. Go figure! The waiting is getting hard & I even find myself getting negative about not having our baby yet. I'm now very jumpy every time the phone rings & my heart starts to beat really fast. Then I see it's not our agency & then I have to go through the disappointment of it not being them. I know babies will come when they come but we really had hopes of getting things going here. We do see some pros with this waiting but we also see some cons. The major con is that we have Wyatt's surgery scheduled Dec. 10. If things get delayed with paperwork, we might have to reschedule things there or 1 of us has to come home early. All doable but I don't know if this mommy could be that far away when her son is in surgery! I guess I better live my motto "If you want to make God laugh, tell Him your plans!" to the fullest with this one! I'm sure He's gotten a chuckle out of me everyday for quite some time!

Not Yet

We are on pins & needles here! No baby yet but it should be soon. We are trying to remain patient but it is so hard! We know we aren't in control of anything. If she doesn't have the baby today, we are looking at a longer stay b/c of the Thanksgiving holiday. We know it's no one's fault & babies will come when they come. Just makes it a little harder with 4 kids back home to be gone even longer. But when we get our little one in our arms, we know that it will all be worth it! Just pray that the baby comes soon!

To Remain or Be in Readiness

It's just a fancy definition of "waiting". I'm sick of saying we are just "waiting". So instead, we are "to remain or be in readiness". Sounds a little prettier but it's still what we are doing. We are ready & getting anxious. I can't imagine a time frame moving more slowly!! Someone asked me if this was anything like the end of a pregnancy & I said it was worse! It most definitely is. There is no control. There are no contractions on my part. There are no doctors' appointments for us to be at. Nothing but to continue on with life as normal until we get that phone call. Each day that is new is a day that we could be welcoming our baby & that fact makes each exciting but also very long! We know it will be soon & of course in God's timing but this last little while has been hard to go through. We know babies come when it's time but being on the outside waiting is hard. It will be here before we know it & it will all be worth it! Can't "wait" til we are no longer "remaining or in readiness".

Smooth Move

I'm sure this will come as a complete shock but I can tend to pull some good moves at times. I'm really not a full out klutz but I can thank my mother (whom I love dearly) for being a little clumsy from time to time. Yesterday was no exception. We had baptism for my nephew, Kasen, yesterday morning so we had to be leaving the house quite a bit earlier than normal for a Sunday morning. I hadn't heard Alexa get up so I thought I would quickly run downstairs to see if she was, in fact, up & getting ready. Well, we have a wooden gate that automatically shuts behind you to go downstairs & as I stepped on the 2nd step, my foot literally slide off the step & I was on my way to landing very hard on my back side. So what's the natural thing to do? Grab onto anything for dear life to keep from falling all the way down! I had 1 hand on the gate & the other on the staircase & it caused a huge jolt on my arms & their sockets but I did stop myself, hard! I knew right away that the muscles in my arms & side were going to be hurting. I thought I was fine until this morning. I couldn't lift my arms above my head & I had a hard time getting Jackson dressed. I was also struggling at work with getting files put away on the top shelf. I'm hoping this is the worst it gets or I am in for it!

Just a couple weeks ago, I accidentally left my bottom drawer to my dresser open when I went to bed but wanted to quick get up & switch some laundry. I ran right into that drawer! Yep, I thought I broke a couple of toes but it was just black & blue for a while.

Des will get a kick out of this one! A few years ago when we raised golden retrievers, Brian & I thought it would be a good idea to take 1 of our new females on our walk/run with us. She was doing so good that we decided to run. We didn't get very far & something spooked her & the next thing I know, she ran right into me & totally took me out! My whole right side was completely scraped up.(Now you know why I refuse to run unless being chased!) I was picking gravel out of my arm for a week!

Okay, I think that's enough smooth moves for me for a while! If not, I need to look at getting better insurance because I am really intent on hurting myself lately!