Happy Birthday Charlie Jace Asanti Gulker!!!

1 Year ago, our lives were blessed by your entrance into this world, Charlie Jace!! I can remember almost every detail of that day like it was yesterday. I remember sitting anxiously in the hospital lobby by the water fountain, waiting for any kind of news. Our caseworker, Michelle, showed up & said we could go up. She then got a text & gave us the news that you were born!! You weighed 6 lbs 7 oz & were 18.5 inches long! I couldn't even imagine how tiny you were! We followed Michelle up the steps & started zigzagging through the hallways. We had no idea where we were & then we turned the corner. I'm sure time stopped for me for a few moments & then things moved in slow motion until we were right by your side. You were in the bassinet right next to the window & we just fell in love instantly! I wanted to scoop you up & hold you forever! We got to stay in the nursery for a while & got to feed you your first bottle. Your daddy tried to tell me not to get attached but I knew at that moment, I was looking at my son & the love was instant. We tried the many different names we had talked about & you were a Charlie right from the beginning. We marveled at how God had formed you so perfectly & we were amazed how wonderful His ways are! He knit you together in your first momma's womb because you, Charlie Jace, are fearfully & wonderfully made! He set you in our family & we couldn't feel more blessed to be your parents!

Where I Was

1 year ago, we were on our way to where Charlie was going to be born. I have been so sentimental lately. I seriously can't believe he's going to be 1 already! Tonight I had the wonderful pleasure of talking with the woman who gave Charlie life. It was so great to hear from her & I'm sure it was the first of many phone calls to come. She loves Charlie so much & I'm so grateful that he will know that. Only 3 more days till Charlie's birthday & I'm sure to be a mess. We are so blessed to have him in our lives & I can't wait to celebrate him!

I'm Procrastinating

Isn't bad that i'm typing a blog post just to get out of folding the 3-4 loads of laundry sitting next to me?? I can complain about never getting anything done anymore but I know I can play just as big of a role in that too. Charlie is taking a nap & Jackson is playing a new game on his Nintendo DS. I'm now sitting at my computer, sipping my coffee and now typing this post.

I have been finding it difficult to manage my time lately. This has been made more evident when I'm doing my Bible study about God wanting all of me and not just a small part of me. I know this to be true but I have been failing miserably. I make the excuses of wanting "me" time when it seems like all day I have 5 others who want "my" time. It hasn't helped that Charlie has been sick with a nasty cold & I think I literally held him for 7 days straight! He's now doing better but he found it quite nice to ride on my hip the entire day so he follows me around until I put him in his favorite spot, my arms. Ok, I guess a part of me loves that he wants to be near me constantly! He loves his momma and the feeling is very mutual!

Back to prioritizing my time! I need to do it. I need to shut out all other distractions. TV, computer, phones, etc. Anyone have any good ways to keep myself accountable?